Yeah, another Diego entry. I'm sick of it too. But I have no one to talk to about it here. I wrote him this farewell postcard because I'm just sort of trying to be done with thinking about him. I like him so much still, I miss him a lot, and daydream about things. It's kind of terrible. How can a one month long relationship leave me like this? I'm currently listening to this song by the Halobenders and there's this verse the singer keeps saying "I'm reeling around the fountain". Reminds me of him a little bit. He'd always mention his last name over and over and what it means in spanish. Lafuente means "fountain". Listening to this song makes me feel like I'm reeling around Diego. My mind keeps reeling around him. Why do I care so much? I've been powerwalking everyday at the park and the trail is about 3 miles long. I'd reflect on why I'm still so hung-up over it all, and what I should do. I feel like I have two egos. One doesn't want to give up on him at all. And one wants to see practically and listen to friends and just stay away and let things go. But as we all know me, I always tend to follow my heart in almost every little thing I do. I follow it almost like a mad-man. Sometimes it's good and a lot of times it's bad.
I want to start over. Go back in time and go to Candylicious and run into him again. But this time, I'd know how he is. And I'd understand him better. We'd communicate better. I'd feel more secure. I'd be more patient. I'd dance with him. Around a fountain somewhere late at night.
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