Eurydice

I think I need to learn how to be alone/single again. I think that is my problem. I haven't been a loner long enough. I shouldn't be in any relationships right now. Not for a while. I gotta learn how to depend on making myself happy on my own. I'm too vulnerable. It always seems like bad timing. I need to be myself again, find myself again, build myself again. Three months isn't long enough. I never planned to jump into this recently ended relationship with the new guy, but I probably should not have gone any further. I don't know if I regret it. But as time passes, I know that I am heartbroken again for the second time.

I reminisce the few memories, imagine the gazes, listen to the songs, and just feel. And now I cry. A delayed reaction that took a few days.

I try to analyze and figure out what a significant other should be. A best friend? A lover? A protector? I feel like it can't be all three.