Maybe we really aren't right for each other. Maybe he was too weak for me. Too meek, unassertive, and unromantic. I need someone more dominant and extroverted, with more experience. First love + first love = works successfully. But first love + someone that's been in many relationships = fail. That's how I started to see it. It makes me sad, because everything else was nice. He was my best friend. I guess he just wasn't boyfriend material.

I signed up on Chemistry.com for fun. Boy, does this site suck. It would match me up with complete weirdos and guys who are just not my type. Either that or Houston has no guys for me. My friend suggested we do speed-dating for fun. Sounds kind of cool. Talk to someone for 5 minutes and move to the next table to talk for another 5 minutes and so forth. I"m sure it'll be all weirdos and old divorcees.

I've been having reoccuring dreams about my breakup with Jon. Like wtf, man. Isn't the real thing enough agony? Gotta replay the tape while I try to snooze peacefully. UGH, can i just get hypnotized and pretend none of this happened and I've been single for the last 3 years?